Some of you know this, but I guess it's time to let everyone in, seeing as how your probably going find out one way or another. In God's good and perfect timing we lost our little baby. The mixture of emotions regarding this sudden turn of events is mind boggling. One second i'm completely ok, seeing as how the idea of ushering in a new life this year hadn't even yet sunk in. The next my heart is tearing in two. To be honest it's even sadder in the wake of 40 years of roe v wade, but let's not get into that.
This has been an incredible time. A time of joy, followed by a time of immense sorrow, all the while a time of learning just how far we can be stretched and still knowing we're being held in God's gracious and loving hand. Ben and I have experienced so much together, it's crazy that you still don't expect something like this to happen, but we have grown so much closer than we ever thought possible and for that I am very grateful.
So for those of you who have opened your heart to us, who have shared your past sorrows and your future joys, thank you. It means the world to us. As easy as it would be to just keep all this quiet, I feel slightly hopeful that this will help some other young woman who goes through the same thing, that it is nothing to be ashamed of or feel guilty about(although you probably will at least a little bit!), and that Jesus is right there with you caring for your broken heart. And that strangely your going to feel okay with it all. And there is a bright, child filled future ahead! And it is going to be beautiful.
I am hoping to keep up with this blog despite the changes in title. Some big news today..I, for the first time in my 24 years of life...have planned out our meals for next week. Thank you for your applause.
R&B
R&B,
ReplyDeleteMy heart completely breaks for you both as I read this. What a story you both have. Although we have no rhyme or reason for sadness that we face in this world, there is a God who is so much bigger than all of this. I am in awe of the perspective and stance you are choosing to take within all of this. Your story will be a testimony to so many others around you.
Sending lots of hugs & love,
Brenda
I am so sorry for your loss Rebecca. I like when you wrote God's good & perfect timing, because even thought it is so painful & heartbreaking we can't forget that it is God's good & perfect timing for it all. God give you strength.
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Oh, Becky! I am so sorry to hear this! I have never been through this sort of loss before but I do understand the emotions of being ok one moment and not the next. You are right that God has a perfect plan for each one of our lives, and in that, I take great comfort! Thank you for being open with what is going on. That takes great courage!
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