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1/30/13

I have a problem.

I am not what you would call a creature of habit.  To be honest i think my only habit is i don't have a single one.  It takes a lot of effort for me to even remember and make time to shower, let alone clean the house with any reasonable schedule or eat at a proper time. I guess absentmindedness is my habit.  And when something fantastic comes around like it has this week, goodbye productive life.  I get so obsessed with things that aren't real that I can't even try to worry about the things that are..
That thing has been Sherlock.  Thank goodness there's only been a few seasons so far, but you can be sure i've watched all three in a matter of days.  And because of that I had to spend over two hours just now cleaning my tiny apartment of what's been building up since i've started the show.  It's that good.  Help.

1/27/13

simple pleasures

I love that phrase. simple pleasures. tiny daily reminders of the beauty of life and it's joys.  I used to use that term when i was a lad and got to be the one to mix up the just opened, perfectly smooth jars of jelly. i was easily amused obviously...
but as i've been trying to figure out what i want this blog to be about, i think i want it to be about simple pleasures.  On pinterest(yes...i've succumbed) i saw a thing where you write down little experiences that bring you joy throughout the year and put them in a jar and read them at the end of the year.  I thought that was sweet, mostly because of my completely rubbish memory, but I thought it would work even better in this format.  So here goes.
Right now, at the end of a fantastic sabbath filled with the gospel, dear friends, and star wars(can anything be better?) my husband is jamming away with his recently unearthed from-the-depths-of-our-storage-shed old electric guitar and amp. I can't think of anything better.  How was your sunday?

1/24/13

Change of Plans

Some of you know this, but I guess it's time to let everyone in, seeing as how your probably going find out one way or another. In God's good and perfect timing we lost our little baby. The mixture of emotions regarding this sudden turn of events is mind boggling. One second i'm completely ok, seeing as how the idea of ushering in a new life this year hadn't even yet sunk in. The next my heart is tearing in two. To be honest it's even sadder in the wake of 40 years of roe v wade, but let's not get into that.

This has been an incredible time. A time of joy, followed by a time of immense sorrow, all the while a time of learning just how far we can be stretched and still knowing we're being held in God's gracious and loving hand. Ben and I have experienced so much together, it's crazy that you still don't expect something like this to happen, but we have grown so much closer than we ever thought possible and for that I am very grateful.

So for those of you who have opened your heart to us, who have shared your past sorrows and your future joys, thank you. It means the world to us. As easy as it would be to just keep all this quiet, I feel slightly hopeful that this will help some other young woman who goes through the same thing, that it is nothing to be ashamed of or feel guilty about(although you probably will at least a little bit!), and that Jesus is right there with you caring for your broken heart. And that strangely your going to feel okay with it all. And there is a bright, child filled future ahead! And it is going to be beautiful.

I am hoping to keep up with this blog despite the changes in title. Some big news today..I, for the first time in my 24 years of life...have planned out our meals for next week. Thank you for your applause.


R&B

1/4/13

the end

and the very beginning.  I have had countless conversations in my head about every single detail of our lives once they changed with parenthood.  Now that it's about to become a reality, I can't remember a single one. Onward!